Surviving the storm of bad diabetes days
I have had more bad diabetes days than I'd like to admit to. These are the days where nothing goes right, and no matter what I do, or how hard I try, I can't seem to calm the storm.
Blood sugars fluctuate wildly way too high or way too low. No matter how careful I am to not overtreat the low or high, I can't find a normal blood sugar anywhere. If I even look at a gram of carbohydrate the wrong way my blood sugar goes skyrocketing again. On top of that, I feel physically exhausted from riding the roller coaster of blood sugars. Then the unfairness of diabetes comes into full focus and makes me feel depressed and angry about all of it.
Is it possible that days like this cause my brain chemistry to be different too, making it easier to feel depressed and angry (or impossible not to feel that way)?
What can I do on days like this?
Ride out the choppy waves of bad diabetes days
Sometimes there is nothing to do but wait for the storm to pass.
I try to detach emotionally from the situation, do some background troubleshooting, do the basic mechanics of good diabetes self-care, all while just waiting for the day to end. I often feel like I've been spun through a washing machine or some evil carnival ride. I picture myself stumbling around with a wildly confused look in my eyes, muttering "what just happened to me?"
Diabetes has the ability to chew us up and spit us out, and it doesn't have to follow the rules we've invented for it.
On days like this I remember that there is a whole lot we don't know about diabetes, and then I do my best to simply survive the day.